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Journey back to the submissive Maso Sub(?)


When I finally entered the real BDSM scene at the end of 2014, it was absolutely clear to me: I am submissive through and through. At the time, I had no idea that I was also an exceptionally intense masochist, as pain was still far too synonymous with discomfort and fear. Fortunately for me, a Dom (in his lived role as a fem-Dom) took care of me and led me on the right path in an incomparably sensual and intense way.

The fact that the then lady boss of the legendary S&M club CATONIUM became aware of me and accompanied and steered my path (as a play partner and close friend) was one of the great miracles of that magical time and ensured that I blossomed into one of the most intense maso-subs in Hamburg in an unbelievably short time. Thus I experienced the last time of the BDSM oldschoolers in the clubs before they withdrew more and more into the private sphere - and I gave and enjoyed with all my might! With the disappearance of this scene from the clubs and the loss of my Dom (whom my devotion bordering on bondage unfortunately began to overwhelm), a frustrating phase of aimlessness began for me.

There were still sadists who played me hard, but the passionate connection was missing. And so my inner resistance - actually unintentional - grew and grew. I felt that an intensely dominant side was slumbering in me, but I had no idea that an even more intense sadist was hiding in the depths of my soul.

In the summer of 2017, I started a few attempts to build up a BDSM circle in Hamburg and even organised a few regulars' tables - always in the hope of finally finding a suitable Dom for me again. There were many contenders (online)... but my demands had become extremely high. Then I met a very special fem-dom... without my knowing that an encounter with me a few years earlier had put her on the path to sadistic dominance herself (this story will probably remain our own personal one for a long time and will therefore not find its way into this blog).
 

Me as a happy maso sub

 
She became my mistress and I fell for her incredibly quickly, skin and hair. She could play with me harder than ever before and I enjoyed it extremely - for a short time... At the time, I simply had no idea that our worlds collided... For me, BDSM was life, religion, meaning. For her it was a game in which almost only her pleasure gain was relevant. But once I fall in love, I fight for this connection until I collapse... and so I finally broke... twice.

I will not go into the details here and my inner drama. Only this much: what happened back then first destroyed my devotion and then let my new sadistic-dominant self awaken. And I am infinitely glad that this happened to me!

But I confess that I always longed intensely for the wonderful journeys into subspace, this complete letting go (which I like to compare with the scenes from Guardians of the Galaxy in which Star Lord and Gamora float in infinity). But I could no longer reach it.

When someone played with me or even tried to dominate me, a power awoke in me that made me experience it all as a pure playful trial of strength. I still felt the dominance of others, but it no longer seemed stronger than my own - quite the opposite). And even when an incredibly real and sensual dominatrix like Mistress Lucie from Prague (Fetish Kinky Clinic Prague) played with me intensely-lovingly, I enjoyed it extremely, but no longer achieved the freedom and fulfilment of the subspace. I was convinced that I had lost my submission forever.
 

Piercing with Alice - Behind the Scenes Intro

 
Completely unexpectedly, I was proven wrong in the spring of 2020 - and it was wonderful. I had always believed that it would take a particularly strong and experienced Dom to perhaps bring me back to total surrender, but in truth it was completely different. And that is once again the fantastic thing about fetish BDSM: It always leads you down paths that you had no idea existed or were open to you. It was the first meeting with the stunningly sexy Alice D. Bitchcraft in my loft that was to turn everything wonderfully upside down.

We were both quite excited about our plan to shoot some very intense bald fetish porn videos together. Fortunately, we quickly realised that - despite all the nervousness - we had perfect chemistry, which then prompted me to dare to do things that require quite a lot of trust (and of course, it was exactly these fantasies that turned me on). So I had the visual fantasy of Alice playing with me as her slave, tied up in my floor rack, and fucking me with a strap-on.

To get myself really intensely turned on, I wanted to start by piercing my septum (again) with a spike and inserting a large septum ring so that she could chain me to it. She was a bit scared at first, as she wasn't familiar with such extreme piercing actions and sessions. But we just went for it.

And then something happened that neither of us could have dreamed of: the kinky shoot turned into an incredibly intense session in which Alice's leading dominance awoke and I could actually let myself fall back into the role of the maso-sub. This all happened without any further arrangements or planning - and I actually lost myself in the sub-space again after such a long time. The following pictures, taken from the resulting video recordings, show quite clearly, in my opinion, what a very special magic was created between us in this session (and that was only the beginning). Nothing in these pictures is an act.

This photo story tells this story of our sensual erotic clip....

Piercing with Alice ­ ­– Journey back to submissive Maso Sub

My girlfriend Alice D. Bitchcraft and I had such an intense fantasy: I should wear a thick nose ring with which she can take me on a chain. And then we made the dream become intense S&M reality. I pierced my septum with a spike and then we inserted the nose ring.
 

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We were in a frenzy... and finally Caroline R. Ubber took the spike, pierced her septum with pleasure and Alice D. Bitchcraft inserted the biggest nose ring at hand.
 

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The subliminal fantasy of - now lustfully sadistic - Alice D. Bitchcraft has come true: With the big ring through her septum and the chain on it, Caroline R.Ubber has become her will-less toy. She takes a critical look at her sex slave.

 
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Ashamed of her reawakened devotion, Caroline R.Ubber is caught in conflicting emotions. How can it be that she, the sadistic dominant, surrenders herself like this? Should she fight it - or just let it happen?
 
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She doesn't know whether she should resist all this, tries to turn away to escape the influence of Alice D. Bitchcraft. But inside she has long since made her decision....

 
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And so she lets her heart decide: She will give herself body and soul to Alice D. Bitchcraft. And as the young Mistress senses this, she gently caresses the taut breasts of her new, once so dominant, sub and lets her fingers tenderly yet strongly explore the aroused skin of her new toy.
 

And generous as she is, Mistress Alice D. Bitchcraft also grants her sex slave the delights of pain as she begins to play intensely with the nipple clamps that send hot waves of pleasure shooting through Caroline R. Ubber's body.
 

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Before they continue to explore the lustful-painful cosmos of sadistic-masochistic passions, the two sensual women assure each other of their deep, erotic bond.
 
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Trust, surrender and responsibility are the keys on the path of the true Dominant-Submissive relationship - a bond that explores and opens up worlds that normal people could never imagine.


 

Behind the Scenes

While I was very kicked by the idea of finally piercing my septum again after a long time, Alice was not really thrilled by this idea at first. She is incredibly fond of me (as I am of her) and is therefore very concerned about my wellbeing. When I pierce my septum, it really penetrates the nasal cartilage, which not only looks fierce, but also requires quite a bit of force (and pain tolerance, of course).

Fortunately, she didn't faint when it really happened, and even fascination and finally dominant-sadistic horniness awoke in her - energies that I enjoyed incredibly! These photos show me piercing the cartilage with a spike so she can insert the ring.
 

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